Its hard to be overweight!

I am standing 5 feet and 7 inches tall with weight of 75 kg. My Body Mass Index tells me that I am overweight. To be labelled as fit, I need to weigh 54 kg. Well, that's an extra 21 kg to loose! 

It really hard to be overweight and I've been with this "label" since high school. Of course, I had my episodes of wishing to look good half naked, walking around the beach with a visible abs and be branded as "HOT" by the people around me. Yet, minimal actions were being made to make these dreams a reality. 

I often console myself of how different I am with the rest of the guys. True enough that there's more into me than what meets everyone's eyes. Yes, I am aware that I am just rationalizing as to defend myself. The wishful me is deep inside me. Wishful to look better with a better body.

Being on a body as mine affects much of my self esteem. I am having hard times on choosing clothes that would satisfy and would lie on my true fatty figure. Dark colors are my colors to flatter myself. It seems that I am still taking care of my baby fats. (laughs). 

Before I feel bad when someone teases me on how fat I am. After hearing it a lot of times, I get used to it and even afford to make fun of myself through my fats. They have been a good punchline to my friends ;)

I am more of an academic man than athletic. I would prefer reading books or studying than sweating around. I remember when I was in high school, I feel bad about myself whenever get too sweaty. I wanted to play around and learn some sports but I was too conscious not to sweat! By now, my sweat glands seemed to follow the orders of his masters--I minimally get wet even though I jog for 30 minutes or more. 

Yes, I do some exercise routines with my Dad but I often caught myself cheating; having wane-out the motivation needed. In loosing weight, motivation is the key which I often lose.

A certain blog then motivated me to change. The blog was written by a man with a family name of Spark. He was overweight for many years and got used to his weight. He began to notice that he was gaining weight more and more and wasn't doing anything about it. Like me, he wanted to strip all those flabs and look better and realize that those fats wont leave him by themselves- he must do something about it. Today, he looks good on his new weight.

To look good requires to be physically fit. The word fat is almost synonymous to ugliness to the modern world! I want to look good and don't want to be called UGLY of course.

I hope I could do what Mr. Sparks did. I hope I could borrow his motivation to change my lifestyle. If this goes on...I would end up an obese man suffering from type 2 diabetes.